Two Years Today

I realize that I miss you

I miss you when the sun comes up,
I miss you when the sun goes down,
And then I realize another day has passed.

I miss you when I look at Jeremiah,
I miss you when I look at Mikey,
I miss you when I look at Paige,
And then I realize they no longer have a grandpa.

I miss you when I make a call,
I miss you when the phone rings,
And then I realize there will be no more jokes about a finger being broken.

I miss you when we drive to Arkansas,
I miss you at The Moon Family Reunions,
And then I realize you will never be the life of the party again.

I miss you when I need to ask a question about my car,
I miss you when I have a question about how to fix a toilet,
And then I realize you can’t answer any more home improvement questions.

I miss you when I think about starting a family,
I miss you when I think about adoption,
And then I realize my children will never ever understand the joy of what a great grandpa you were.

I realize Father’s Day has a new meaning to me now that you’re gone,
And I miss you.

I realize when I graduate from college you will not be sitting in the front row with a smile,
And I miss you.

I realize that I will never get to have another father daughter dance with you,
And I miss you.

I realize that your white T-shirts make me feel safe when I wear them,
And I miss you.

I realize I never really understood how hard it would be to let you go,
And I miss you.

I realize that you are gone and I miss everything about you.

My heartaches for one last talk, laugh, hug, conversation, anything just to have one last minute with you.

And I miss you.